Dancing

This everlasting beating heart moves within me and I dance. Music begins to flow through my ears; I listen. Your creativity captures me and the Holy Spirit runs through my nerves; I dance. Oh what a beautiful universal language! I dance through this mystery of beauty and I see your eyes. Notes flutter in my mind like wings of butterflies.... everyone colorful, everyone unique, everyone beautiful, everyone one moving in a different rhythm; flying in one gust of wind. Authentic community. 

I can't get over the beauty of His eyes...

Hearing the voices of his children calling out to him, I walked in the back of the room. The beauty of hunger among my brothers and sisters brought joyful tears to my eyes. I sat and closed my eyes in full relaxation, humbling myself before my Father. Praying, "I want to feel the wind in my hair with you," a breeze came upon my face and my hair softly flew back. Everything went silent and black, my body felt light. The black spun into grey and this gold light leaked through these tiny openings. What was the source of this light, I wanted to see! I didn't care about the scars on my face or the guilt in my eyes. I need to stop gazing at myself, for He has already healed me. I am open to his beauty, I am fully open to his love. No longer do I dwell inside as a slave to this artificial fabric. I felt His hand gently run across my face. The veil that was grazing my face was lifted. My eyes locked on His. Everything was bright and there were rays of gold over His face. I could only see His eyes. OH THE MULTITUDE OF LOVELINESS!!! As I gaze like a dove I begin to sense my destiny... I belong to my lover and his desire is for me.  

God's Love

I'm running into an intimacy of love that surpasses all understanding. Through our minds he engages our hearts. My heart throbs and swells with joy and my face is radiant. My eyes are set on this perfect lover. My distracted eyes gaze at his beauty and his heart is ravished with love. I do things because he loves me, not for his love. Forget all rituals and works, because that does nothing but distract our hearts. For all he wants is the intimacy of our love. All he wants is to hold me in his arms and comfort me; for me to rest in his perfect love. Deal with the vulnerability of letting him love you. The revelation of His love comes greatly through human failures. All I want to do is simply respond to his love. The foundation of our hearts must be built on the love of God. Respond to the initiation of God. He is dancing wildly and singing over my life. He is the relentless hound of heaven. He will never stop. He has the perfect ability to love. Embrace it.

The Intimacy of God's Love

Hunger for the depth of who God is. Get wisdom and get understanding through hunger. In all your getting, get wisdom. Embrace and you will receive. Through our minds, he engages our hearts; rest is a posture of our heart.  Bring our hearts into stillness, into the rest of Mary's mind. Lay everything you have at His feet. Break the striving. He loves us too much to let us go change the world without intimacy. Don't be distracted by serving, for you will be driven out mentally. Be cautious of where your heart is when you are serving. We don't serve to attain his love, we serve because he loves us. I'm not working for love, I'm working of love. The deepest intimacy of love is in rest. Rest in his arms and receive his love.

My Shepherd

"The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.

He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters,

he restores my soul.

He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake.

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, 

I will fear no evil,

for you are with me; your rod and your staff,

they comfort me.

You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies.

You anoint my head with oil;

my cup overflows.

Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life,

and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever."

Psalm 23

Stop relying on humanistic help. We as humans are like sheep.... we have nothing to defend ourselves, but only that of the shepherd. He leads us in everything. Rest, lean on him, and keep your eyes focused on him. The face of Jesus is revival. The presence of Jesus is transformation.

C.S. Lewis

"If I discover within myself a desire that nothing in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that I was made for another."

The Mystery of Beauty

I am rooted and grounded in this unfailing love that surpasses knowledge; which makes my eyes swell up with tears as I gaze at the mysterious beauty of this world. Being here makes me hunger for knowledge of the mystery of beauty. I can't even handle this multitude of loveliness. My face turns radiant and my heart throbs and swells with joy. I want to be the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit; with a love more delightful than wine.